BOY BYSTANDER CARL CATHERINE CHANCE CHRISTINA DI HOMELESS_MAN HYNES KIRSTEN LAMBERT LORENA LYNDSAY MAN NICOLE POLICE_OFFICER SANFORD SIMON WINTER WOMAN WOMANS_VOICE CHANCE Previously on Chance. CHANCE Nic thanked Pepper? CHRISTINA Right after she broke her nose. DI My father hired new P.I.s to track me. Just be for a couple of days. CHANCE Why didn't you just talk to him? Just get everything out on the table, even if it's only to establish terms. CARL My son. Last time I saw him, he was just a little boy. LORENA What happened? CARL I'm gay, is what happened. LAMBERT Winter's people reached out. I'm telling you as a friend, you need to back it off. LYNDSAY He wants to torment you, and you can't let him get away with it. We can't. HYNES Winter filed another complaint. I lost my job. CHANCE Mr. Winter suffered a trauma. It's raised issues for him that he wants to work through with therapy. LYNDSAY Does he want that, or do you? He says he has to trust the process, trust you. But I don't have to, and I don't. WINTER I hurt people. I hurt them so bad that they died. WINTER I felt helpless, and-and I found a way not to be. She woke back up at one point. Regained consciousness. BOY Mommy! Mommy! WINTER It's funny. She was, uh, pretty lucid, talking about. Well, not funny. But it's curious, the kinds of things people will say. She said that she was worried about a driver’s test she had the next morning and asked me if I was there to help her study. To tutor her. CATHERINE WINTER Her name was Catherine. And she made me feel better. CHANCE That was the first one? First one you you hurt? You killed? That was your coping mechanism. WINTER Yes. CHANCE But it didn't last. WINTER No. Once you know how, you want to feel better again. CHANCE How many? How many have there been? WINTER CHANCE How do you choose them? Your victims. WINTER Sins choose us according to our weaknesses. But there are people who shine with vulnerability, whether they know it or not. Their faces say, "I am afraid of you." Their faces tell you what they expect you to do to them. They expect to be hurt. They invite it because they expect it. And if I chose anything, it was because their weakness spoke to mine. CHANCE Were they all mothers? A child shines with vulnerability. A child who's been hurt expects to be hurt again. Does that mean they deserve it? Or do they deserve to be protected? Cared for? Loved? Who told you this, about sin and weaknesses? Who said that to you? A very damaged woman who was carrying her own terrible psychic pain she tried to give to you, pass on to you before she tried to destroy you. WINTER I'm not dead. I'm lost, but I'm not dead. I'm not dead. DI Hmm. Old-school. But effective. How's this? How about now? Fear stops when you kill the thing you're afraid of. Or it kills you. HYNES How many? CHANCE He talked about how he chose them and how he tracked them. He implied it was many, but he never actually said a number. He did name one, though. Catherine. And I-I... I had him. He was right there with me. WINTER Let's just go for a drive. Maybe we just go for a drive. CHANCE Yeah. I can drive you wherever you want to go. WINTER I don't feel right. CHANCE Listen, I think you're being very brave, Ryan. You had to carry this whole thing alone for so long. WINTER Just give me a second. CHANCE But you know what I think we should do right now? I'd like to bring you to the hospital, get you admitted. HYNES You got further than I ever did. Than anyone could. But then to fucking lose him. WINTER Oh, no. No, no, no. CHANCE What? WINTER She's here. LYNDSAY Ryan? Are you all right? I'm sorry I. CHANCE Shit. LYNDSAY What's going on here? CHANCE This-this doesn't change anything, all right? I heard you. I want to help you. LYNDSAY Help him? He's a wreck because of you. CHANCE You can't go back on this now. You know that. The only way out of this is through. Please come with me now. Please. LYNDSAY Come with you? CHANCE Ryan, please. CHANCE I don't know if he actually wanted to stop. HYNES You know what people do that don't want to stop? They keep fucking going. LYNDSAY He wants you to leave. CHANCE He didn't say that. LYNDSAY He doesn't need to. CHANCE What? LYNDSAY Maybe I should call 911. CHANCE Go ahead. Let's get the police here. LYNDSAY You're awfully confident. Wonder why that is. You ready? Let's call 'em. CHANCE CHANCE I didn't get him to turn himself in. I didn't get him to admit anything that I can legally take to the police. I should have. My head was just fill. I wanted to. HYNES What, get yourself arrested? Fuck that. You played it the way you could. And you and you didn't blow it. You got us a name. Catherine. I've never heard of any unsolved Catherines. Maybe they never found her body, or maybe she's one of the bodies out on the Headlands, even. I'm gonna look into that. CHANCE Look into it how? HYNES I'll let you know. I'm gonna look into having someone look into it for me. Got this friend Frank at the D.A.'s office who doesn't completely hate me yet. I can I can ask him. Oh, and speaking of looking into things, that fucking Lyndsay? I looked into her way back when, and nothing. CHANCE Where's she from? HYNES Oh, Connecticut or some shit. Why? CHANCE I don't know. Just grasping at straws, I guess. Maybe Winter doesn't have any involvement with Stevie Benjamin's death. HYNES CHANCE Well, you know. Maybe he just had a morbid fascination with it from growing up close by. Maybe the rock that D found in his house doesn't have the significance we thought it did. HYNES Maybe, since we're dreaming, I'd like a pony. CHANCE I know. I-I agree. I'm just saying if we're not dreaming, if we are right, then we still don't actually know who that DNA belongs to. HYNES No, we don't, do we. CHANCE So Winter admitted that his coping mechanism is killing. And he also admitted that it's not working anymore. I don't even want to think about how he came to that conclusion. Got enough on my conscience as it is. Right now my focus has to be to get him back. You know, when I was sitting opposite him, he was rambling on about dealing out death. I thought about dealing it right back at him. More than once. I don't know how you do it all those years. Sitting opposite killers, encouraging them, getting them to elaborate without. HYNES Stabbing them in the fucking eye? Let me tell you something. You know how many times I pulled out my piece in the line of duty? Seven. 26 years. Know how many times I've shot it? Once. How many people I've killed? None. If you're not acting in self-defense or the active-defense of someone else, then you're a fucking murderer. Ryan Winter is a murderer. That's who he wants to be. I'm not gonna be like him. We have a deal. Ryan Winter in front of the bar of justice to bare all before the whole world. I'm gonna do this my way. Not Ryan Winter's way. And your super-sized friend? I'm sure he's gonna be asking the same question. So you're gonna have to tell him that we we have a deal. SIMON His parole officer called me. Told me he'd been working at a 24-hour garage in Daly City about the last month. I called over and talked to the manager. KIRSTEN And? SIMON And Pardo's not the most popular guy there. So when some big bald guy showed up recently and gave him a beat down, nobody was that surprised. Or sad. Broke a bunch of bones, put him in the hospital. When he got out, went to live with his sister in Castro Valley. But, so, uh, what's the deal? Who's this Pardo guy to you? DI Hinto. Mass attack. I need six guys. I want you to come at me hard. I want you to really try to hurt me, and I'm gonna really try to hurt you. Ready? MAN I'm not gonna argue with you. I'm taking this dog. HOMELESS MAN No. No, please, he's mine. MAN You can't take care of him, man. You know that. This is an animal abuse. BYSTANDER Hey, come on, man. That's his dog. You can't just take it. WOMAN Yeah, well, he can't help himself. How's he gonna help the dog? HOMELESS MAN No, please. WOMAN Put your phones away. He deserves to be protected. It deserves a home. MAN I'm taking the dog. HOMELESS MAN No! No! NICOLE Hey! You're hurting him. MAN Hey, watch it. HOMELESS MAN No! No! BYSTANDER Man, that was crazy messed up. HOMELESS MAN No. DI Hey. NICOLE Dad's not here. DI I know. Futon's all yours again. NICOLE Hey, you okay? DI Yep. NICOLE You get in a fight? DI Nope. What're you working on? NICOLE This morning I saw this rich couple steal a homeless guy's dog. At least they looked like they were rich. It was so mean and shitty. They just yanked it right out of his arms and drove away. And we all just stood there, watching. Or, even worse, filming it. How fucked up is that? DI Pretty fucked up. NICOLE Yeah. So, anyway, I'm trying to find them through the gross magic of social media. The rich hipster couple. DI To do what? NICOLE I don't know. Talk to them. Say if they let me take the dog back, I'll keep an eye on it if they're worried. Make sure it gets its shots and whatever. That way everyone can get what they want. DI These rich people that you're talking about? They have what they want. They don't care about you. Before you even open your mouth, you'll be wasting their time. You can plan shit out in your head. Everything you want to do and say, everything you think the other guy might do or say. But when you get to it, nothing is like you planned. Ever. NICOLE Okay. DI If I left anything here that you find, just throw it away. HYNES Hey. Thanks. Knock, knock. LAMBERT Kev. HYNES Frank, my man. LAMBERT That thing you were working on pan out? What's up? HYNES Yeah. No. We had a little setback there, but we're still on track. LAMBERT Oh, okay. HYNES But the meantime, I could use a favor. Or a couple of them, actually. LAMBERT Jesus wept. Katherine Atkins. HYNES Mother of two. The DOJ website reported her missing in 2005 in Alameda County. So I called Alameda P.D. and got the round and round, and, long story short, they found a body, but they won't tell me shit. LAMBERT Well, like, what do you want to know? HYNES Well, for starters, I'd like to know how she died. And, also, whether there were rocks in her throat. LAMBERT Okay. I'm not even. Yeah, I can make a call. What else? HYNES You, uh, know somebody in the State's Attorney's office in Bridgeport, right? LAMBERT In Bridgeport? You talking Bridgeport, Connecticut? HYNES Yes. LAMBERT Jesus Christ, buddy. You are you are all over the map today. Yes, I do. Why? HYNES Great. Can you ask them to run that sheet? I'm looking for any expunged criminal records. I mean, look, I ran her a few years ago, but I only did it in California, so. LAMBERT Who's Lyndsay Hamilton? HYNES Well, she's Winter's assistant. LAMBERT Winter? Come on. HYNES Yeah, I know. LAMBERT Kevin, why? HYNES I know, but listen to me. I'm just thinking maybe Winter had some help along the way, so let's just leave it at that for now. LAMBERT No, but that's just it. Help with what? And based on what? Kevin, not for nothing, but being your friend is like having a goddamn colonoscopy. HYNES Please, Frank. I need your help. Please. LAMBERT Okay. HYNES Thank you. Appreciate it. LAMBERT Now leave me alone. HYNES Yes. LAMBERT Please? HYNES For today. I will. Thanks again, Frank. CHANCE Ryan, it's Eldon Chance here again. Please call me. Please reach out, okay? I-I need to know you're all right. I'm here to help you. I want to help you. Okay. Ryan? LYNDSAY Stop calling him. CHANCE Lyndsay, Mr. Winter is in a fragile state right now. He needs constant medical supervision. It's possible he might hurt himself or someone else. LYNDSAY I will lodge a formal complaint with the state Medical Board. CHANCE I get it. You care about him. So do I. We're on the same side here. LYNDSAY You will lose your license. Face charges. Should I keep going? CHANCE Listen, if anything happens to him, you could be held responsible. LYNDSAY I am trying my best to be civil, Dr. Chance. You don't want to see what happens when I stop. CHANCE Or maybe I do, Lyndsay. Maybe that way I'll find out what it is you're hiding. WOMAN Paging Dr. Becker. Paging Dr. Becker, please. CHANCE Hey. KIRSTEN Hey. So, full disclosure? CHANCE That could mean almost anything, but sure. KIRSTEN I found Wade Pardo. CHANCE Okay. KIRSTEN I know you said you thought he wouldn't come back here, but still. I asked a cop friend of mine to try and track him down. In case. CHANCE And what'd you find out? KIRSTEN He was working in Daly City at a garage, and then somebody showed up and threw him a beat down. Broke a lot of bones. Not too long after his run in with you. CHANCE Same thing happened to Matty Willis couple weeks ago. He's the guy who broke into Clara Santiago's apartment and raped her. I think that the charge was dropped on an illegal search issue? But Clara came and told me that-that Matty had been robbed and stabbed. He survived, but one of the nerves in his arm was severed. KIRSTEN Really? I-I didn't hear about that. CHANCE Yeah, well, honestly, if we followed up on every person who put a patient in here, I think we'd find the percentage of them volunteering in soup kitchens and helping old ladies across the street would be pretty low. So live by the sword, die by the sword, I guess. Get maimed by the sword. Our job is to deal with the fallout. We got enough fallout to last the rest of our lives. Speaking of which. KIRSTEN Didn't you come in to get coffee? CHANCE Yeah, I did. Obviously, I need it. WOMAN Can't help himself. How's he gonna help the dog? HOMELESS MAN No, please. WOMAN Put your phones away. He deserves to be protected. It deserves a home. NICOLE Hey, you're hurting him. HOMELESS MAN No! No! No. BYSTANDER Man, that was crazy messed up. WOMAN Deserves a home. NICOLE Hey, you're hurting him. HOMELESS MAN No! No! MAN Relax. No, no, no. I got you. Put down the phone. CARL Oh, that's closed now. It was on 18th. It was the only place I could go. HYNES There weren't any other gay bars in the Castro in the '70s? CARL The only place a black man could go. HYNES Oh. CARL Besides Oakland. HYNES Wow. So, what happened? CARL I became incautious. If once a week was fine, four times a week was that much better. I told myself before I told Olivia. I was trying to find what exactly it was I was telling her. And while I was finding out, she found me out. HYNES Oh. CARL Took Alvin to her mother's and followed me to the Pendulum. HYNES Shit. CARL It was a betrayal, no question, made worse by having been discovered rather than confessed. HYNES So, you you never thought about just giving it up? I mean, pretending that it never happened? Saying it was a mistake? CARL You can't close your eyes once they've been opened. HYNES No, you can't. CARL You know, you may not be a married man with child, but still. People are going to look at you differently, and that's fine if you are strong in yourself. And, Kevin, I see that you are. You are strong. You are ready. You are a treasure in a jar of clay. HYNES Yeah, huh? CARL Yes, indeed. Pressed on all sides but not crushed. Perplexed but not in despair. Persecuted but never forsaken. Struck down but never destroyed. Now, how about another cup of tea? Yeah. Ah. Mm-hmm. WOMAN Yeah, you need to stretch more. I don't know why guys don't stretch. I don't want to go very long today. Just something small. MAN Yes. HOMELESS MAN Oh, yeah! Oh, my God. Where'd you come from, huh? Huh? Huh? Oh! Oh! I'm so glad to have you back. CHANCE So, you're here again? Safe to come back now? DI All good, brother. Say it. CHANCE Your face. DI I needed to work something out. Something that didn't feel finished. So I did. And now it does. Winter. You get back with him yet? CHANCE No, not yet. It's not for lack of trying. I've drove by his place, I left a ton of messages. DI Why's he stonewalling now? CHANCE No, it's Lyndsay who's doing the stonewalling. I know what Winter's doing. DI Fucking Eva Braun. I hope Hynes can dig something up on her. CHANCE So do I but that doesn't help me right now. Right now the problem is she's denying me access. With every hour that passes is an hour lost. Winter could change his story, change his mind, he can end the game. Unless unless we could separate the sheep from the sheepdog. DI Awesome. WOMANS VOICE There is the instance where a monk, having gone to the wilderness, sits down under the shade of a tree, setting mindfulness to the fore. Always mindful, he breathes in. Always mindful, he breathes out. Always mindful, he breathes in. LYNDSAY Yes? HYNES Hey, Lyndsay. LYNDSAY Who is this. HYNES You filed the complaint that got me fired- Seems like you should know who I am. LYNDSAY You got yourself fired. Now it seems you want to get yourself arrested as well. HYNES Crazy, right? What the fuck am I thinking? Don't you ever wonder? LYNDSAY Don't I ever wonder what? HYNES What I'm thinking. Why I would throw away a 30 year career and let my life go to shit over your boss. Or what I might know that you don't. Come meet me right now and I'll tell you what you don't know. I'll even let you pick the place. Public place if it makes you feel safer. But pick it right now. Before I change my mind or you'll never get the answers you've always wanted. LYNDSAY He's in his room. Mr. Winter. I have to run out, I'll be back soon- I'm going to end this insanity. Once and for all. Just call me if you need me. But don't leave. And don't let anyone in. CHRISTINA Nic- Are you in there? Nicole! Open the door! Nic, open the door! NICOLE Hey. CHRISTINA Why didn't you answer your phone? NICOLE I don't know. It's charging in the kitchen- Why? What's wrong? CHRISTINA Don't worry, it's gonna be fine. I hired a lawyer and he's gonna meet us down there, okay? We're gonna figure this out, don't worry. NICOLE Mom, don't worry about what? M-Mom, hey stole his dog! I-I just took it back to him, I never. CHRISTINA What are you saying? Stop talking. POLICE OFFICER Nicole Chance, you're under arrest for aggravated assault. Please place your hands behind your back. CHRISTINA Nic, Pepper's parents are pressing charges. It's gonna be fine. I promise. We'll figure this out. HYNES Ramona Marquez, 34, one son, he cut her throat. Ivy Maitland, 31. She had a son. He cut her throat. And Josefa Pefaur, 30. Twin girls and a baby on the way. Winter met her in group therapy, at the Victims of Violent Crime Unit and he cut her throat. Katherine, Travis, Su Yee, Leigh Ann, Ivy, Ramona, Josefa. That's as many as I'm sure of and I don't believe that's all there are. LYNDSAY So. These are the things you think I need to hear? HYNES No. Those are the things everyone needs to hear. When Winter was 4 years old his name was Matthew Debbs. This is a picture of his mother. Amy. When Amy was 33 years old she tried to kill herself by cutting her own throat. It didn't work. So then she tried to kill Matthew instead. Now, I'm not sure, but that's probably why he does what he does. I mean, it seems pretty likely, but still. If I could, I'd talk to him about it. I mean, Wouldn't you? Like to talk to him about it or do you not need to? Do you know everything Lyndsay? LYNDSAY I'm done. HYNES Well, I'm not. When I am, you'll know. WOMANS VOICE And how are the factors for awakening developed and pursued so as to bring clear knowing and release to their culmination? A monk develops mindfulness as a factor for awakening. Persistence as a factor for awakening. Concentration as a factor for awakening. Serenity as a factor for awakening. Dependent on seclusion. Dependent on dispassion. Dependent on closure. Resulting in surrender. WINTER Lyndsay? Lyndsay! CHANCE It's okay, Ryan. I'm here. You're with me here. WINTER Um.were the fuck is here? CHANCE This is a safe place. I brought you here, because I thought it was best. A quiet place to finish what you started. You're not a prisoner. Ryan, you're not a hostage. You wanna call someone. You can Lyndsay, you can call the police if you want. You can tell them you were kidnapped, brought here against your will. It's up to you. WINTER I told you things. CHANCE And I know you're not finished. WINTER No. I can't. I can't- CHANCE Yeah, you can. WINTER I'm not going to prison. CHANCE I'm not asking you to. I've seen this before, Ryan. I had a patient. A woman. She went through this too. She and I did. Together. WINTER Who was she? What was wrong with her? CHANCE She hurt people. Like you did. Like you do. She also had a history of abuse, going back to when she was a child. Beset by feelings of guilt, rage, remorse. Retreating into dissociation. She also told me she couldn't face prison. She was too afraid. But as afraid as she was she trusted me more. She admitted to what she had done. In court. A plea of diminished capacity I testified on her behalf. She was committed to a psychiatric hospital. Not prison. She is receiving care and she's rebuilding her life. And I am helping her do it. It's slow. But it is happening. There's a path here, Ryan. A path to becoming whole. And I think you are brave enough to take the first steps and I'll walk it with you. WINTER How do I know any of this is- if it can really all work out the way you say, for me? CHANCE What you can know is what the future will look like if you don't change it. It going to be like the past. WINTER No. No. I can't just leave my life! I mean I have to put everything in order first- I can't just walk away! CHANCE You can. You can and you have to. You deserve to. WINTER I asked you once how someone could consent to let you in their head without knowing what you would find there. But I knew what you would find. CHANCE Yeah, you did, but you said yes anyway. You trusted me to bring you to this moment. Nothing worthwhile is ever done by thinking alone. At some point- You have to act. WINTER What will it look like? Where do I go? What do I do? CHANCE You just walk into a police station, any police station- WINTER With you? CHANCE No, I can't. They would think I coerced you. They'd be thinking, down the line somewhere, some defense lawyer's gonna use my presence against them. WINTER But you'll come after? When it's done? CHANCE When it's done. WINTER Well, then I guess it's time to act. CHANCE Yeah. WINTER See you on the path. HYNES Hey. CHANCE I think this is it. CARL What is this? Why are we here? DI I called your son. Said how you never once stopped keeping the faith the entire time I've known you. Told him what you did for them, how you'd take all the beatings there are. How you never hated, no matter how hurt you were. CARL Di. DI They get it now. They're up there waiting. They wanna talk. DI Good call. SANFORD Hi. Let's just get it over with then. Go ahead. DI Here's a fucked-up thing. When I needed you, you were gone. When I told you what was happening, you heard enough to know. I didn't get it, though. I kept thinking that you left because you didn't understand. That if I could just be clearer, explain better that you'd finally step up. It took me years for me to see that you just didn't give a fuck. And now, when what I really need is for you to be gone, here you are. With your money, your bought-off judges and your P.I.s hunting me down. With all the shit that got us here on you. So here's my offer. Never try to find or interfere with me again. In this life or any other, by way of covering all bets. As long as you do that- I can even thank you. You made me who I am and I'm okay with it. How about you. You okay with it? You know what? I don't give a fuck if you are or not. I just need to know if we're done. For good. The last time we speak. The last time we anything. Ever. SANFORD Yes. DI Awesome. HYNES Frank? LAMBERT Hey, sorry so late- HYNES Forget it. What's up? LAMBERT Ryan Winter. HYNES Yeah. What about him. LAMBERT I don't have any details yet, just- He called the office he was asking for somebody to come out to his house. Probably should be my boss but my boss is in Tahoe. HYNES Come out to his house? For what? LAMBERT He just said that he needed to talk to somebody. About the things that he's done. Now, obviously I said I'd go, I'm rolling out there now. I thought I'd give you a heads up. In case you wanted to come. HYNES You fucking serious? LAMBERT Well, nothing's official. But if this is what it sounds like it could be- You deserve to be there, man. I mean- You, of all people. HYNES You're the best, Frank. I'm on my way. WINTER Detective. HYNES Where's Frank. I said, where the fuck is Frank! WINTER He's right there. HYNES Frank.